Stabilizing

This has been a hard 18 days. Not impossible, but difficult. I don't think I am getting enough calories, but I am just that committed to losing weight. I am just so tired of not losing for days and days. I have lost 12 lbs so far. Its really not a lot but its a lot more than I would normally lose.

I take a lot of strength from my friend who has stage iv cancer and is still fighting the good fight. This is nothing compared to fighting for your life.

I'm experiencing fatigue and its getting to me. I just want to eat so that I am not tired, but we will see. I hope to lose another 10 lbs with it, so I just have to keep chugging along. I committed to this and I am going to see it through.

Mental Breakdown

I am starting to feel the stress of this diet. I've only lost 5 pounds in 14 days. Yes I've lost weight, but its just a grueling diet. I'm losing my mind because its not fair that others on juice diets lose an average of 1-2 lbs a day. I am just so tired and DISGUSTED with being at this weight that I can no longer handle it. I am about to snap and the only thing left is to just not eat at all. I am seriously thinking about it only because this is driving me insane.

Juicing

SO...I've been keeping something from you all - I have been juicing. Not just in the traditional sense. I am eating nothing but fruit and vegetable juice and this is day 7. I've not had a major major problem with it so far. Its been difficult at times of course, but all in all its worth the amount of weight I think I've been losing. I am not yet sure of how much weight because of two complicating factors. My period and the fact that my scale is off. I weighed myself last at my friend's house and I've seen an 8lb loss so far since last Saturday. That only leaves me 10 more lbs to lose to be at where I started last.

I've been juicing carrots, pineapple, spinach, celery, cucumbers, pears, apples, strawberries. I've been drinking smoothies in the morning comprised of spinach, blueberries and strawberries or blackberries with almond milk and protein powder. I really don't know how many calories I am eating, but I am sure I am getting proper nutrition in.

This is extreme, but this disease is extreme and I will take any lengths to beat it. I want to stop taking metformin because my body will be able to process sugar. I want to have completely normal A1C numbers. This juicing thing is here to stay. Its not permanent by any stretch of the imagination but it will be a part of my regular diet - especially the green juices.

One more pound!!

I dont even know whats going on. I think my body is just not comfortable at this weight because this makes 5 lbs since Sunday!!!!

Two more lbs!

So I am four lbs down total! WHAT a relief! I can't believe its going so well. This scares me for the plateaus I will hit - to keep motivated for them. I guess at the beginning of weight loss its always faster, but I hope this weight loss is a sustained one and not just water weight loss.

Half Marathon Training

So I did finally sign up for the marathon. A friend of mine chided me for saying that I don't pay to run, but I guess the other way did not work. Working towards a goal is a lot better rather than an undefined work-out. I've run 3 miles each day for two days now, so I feel good about starting this endeavor.

I sustained a 2 lb loss from Monday. I don't know what to attribute to it but I am thankful that its coming off. I dont suspect I will lose more than one more pound this week, but I am hopeful.

That's all for today - nothing exciting.

Surprise weight gain

It crept up on me but I gained. It's all because I was not careful. I don't know why I keep expecting something different from actions I know are not good for me - like not exercising. Ugh. I've got to move on and get crazy on this weight.

I've found out I am going on a cruise in December of this year. I've set a weight loss goal for 2 lbs a week in order to look decent. I've also vowed to run a half marathon. I think these two goals are going to motivate me.